Friday, April 30, 2010

One: inspiration

Where do you draw inspiration from?

I get inspired by people, things and places every day. Whether it be something small, like some stranger's blog or something big, like the TOMS One for One movement, it's all so inspiring to me. One of the places I get inspiration from is tumblr. Yeah, some people think it's stupid, others don't understand the point of it or whatever, but I like it. I like going through pages and pages of pictures, quotes, screen caps from movies, articles, ideas, etc and finding things that are interesting and quirky. The thing with inspiration though, is whether or not you do something with it. I get inspired all the time, but I never fully carry out that inspiration to its full potential. I'll think to myself, "OH MAN, that's so smart; I should do that too!" I'll maybe carry on for a few days, and eventually get lazy and forget. Isn't that terrible? Can you imagine the things I could have done had I had the motivation and passion to carry those inspirations to their full potentials? It could have been something amazing. I could have been the source of someone else's inspiration.

Why am I writing all of this today? Of all days, why today? Well, I stumbled upon some stranger's blog, read some of her posts, related to her thoughts and feelings and thought to myself, "I have so many similar thoughts! Why should I keep them all cooped up? Why should I care what other people might think? Maybe if I write it out, instead of being judged, they might actually understand my feelings and relate to me." And so... here we are.

I don't know if I'll actually keep this up. I hope I do. It's something I've always enjoyed (though being in college might have killed my desire for writing... all those papers x_x). I used to love writing so much. I still do, but I'm not as open and eager as I used to be.

They say it says 21 consecutive days of doing something consistently before it becomes a habit. I'll consider this my first post of twenty one. If I can post every day for 21 days, maybe I'll be able to blog consistently.

Thursday, April 29, 2010

17 days

That's how many days I have until graduation.
17 more days until I am done with my undergrad career.

It's a bit surreal. School is all I know and now I have to face the real world. I have nothing waiting for me after graduation. Only unemployment and debt. What's there to look forward to? I want to be more optimistic about my future, but honestly, it's hard to do that when I feel so lost. Where do I go from here? I have no clue. I've been applying to jobs, but I haven't heard back from anything. It's disappointing. Am I not trying hard enough or something? I don't know. Right now, I'm just trying to finish up my take home final exam that is due tomorrow.

I haven't been productive today. I keep getting distracted by everything. I'm so utterly unmotivated to do any work!

AHHH. This is not good.

All I've done since I've gotten back to my room is paint my toessss. One thing I love about summer? Wearing sandals and flip flops... because then I can get pedicures and let my feet breathe :]

I guess I'll just make a list (I love making lists) since I'm already distracted and am not getting anything done.

Things to get done before graduation
1. PACK
2. Figure out what to keep and what to throw out/give away
3. Visit places in Rochester I've never been to
4. Spend all my time outside and with friends.
5. Take more pictures (I haven't spent any quality time with my camera lately)
6. Take pictures around campus.
7. Pack
8. Pack
9. Clean
10. Pack!

Mmmm, yeah. It's really happening. It's time for the real world.