One: inspiration

Where do you draw inspiration from?

I get inspired by people, things and places every day. Whether it be something small, like some stranger's blog or something big, like the TOMS One for One movement, it's all so inspiring to me. One of the places I get inspiration from is tumblr. Yeah, some people think it's stupid, others don't understand the point of it or whatever, but I like it. I like going through pages and pages of pictures, quotes, screen caps from movies, articles, ideas, etc and finding things that are interesting and quirky. The thing with inspiration though, is whether or not you do something with it. I get inspired all the time, but I never fully carry out that inspiration to its full potential. I'll think to myself, "OH MAN, that's so smart; I should do that too!" I'll maybe carry on for a few days, and eventually get lazy and forget. Isn't that terrible? Can you imagine the things I could have done had I had the motivation and passion to carry those inspirations to their full potentials? It could have been something amazing. I could have been the source of someone else's inspiration.

Why am I writing all of this today? Of all days, why today? Well, I stumbled upon some stranger's blog, read some of her posts, related to her thoughts and feelings and thought to myself, "I have so many similar thoughts! Why should I keep them all cooped up? Why should I care what other people might think? Maybe if I write it out, instead of being judged, they might actually understand my feelings and relate to me." And so... here we are.

I don't know if I'll actually keep this up. I hope I do. It's something I've always enjoyed (though being in college might have killed my desire for writing... all those papers x_x). I used to love writing so much. I still do, but I'm not as open and eager as I used to be.

They say it says 21 consecutive days of doing something consistently before it becomes a habit. I'll consider this my first post of twenty one. If I can post every day for 21 days, maybe I'll be able to blog consistently.

17 days

That's how many days I have until graduation.

17 more days until I am done with my undergrad career.

It's a bit surreal. School is all I know and now I have to face the real world. I have nothing waiting for me after graduation. Only unemployment and debt. What's there to look forward to? I want to be more optimistic about my future, but honestly, it's hard to do that when I feel so lost. Where do I go from here? I have no clue. I've been applying to jobs, but I haven't heard back from anything. It's disappointing. Am I not trying hard enough or something? I don't know. Right now, I'm just trying to finish up my take home final exam that is due tomorrow.

I haven't been productive today. I keep getting distracted by everything. I'm so utterly unmotivated to do any work!

AHHH. This is not good.

All I've done since I've gotten back to my room is paint my toessss. One thing I love about summer? Wearing sandals and flip flops... because then I can get pedicures and let my feet breathe :]

I guess I'll just make a list (I love making lists) since I'm already distracted and am not getting anything done.

Things to get done before graduation

1. PACK

2. Figure out what to keep and what to throw out/give away

3. Visit places in Rochester I've never been to

4. Spend all my time outside and with friends.

5. Take more pictures (I haven't spent any quality time with my camera lately)

6. Take pictures around campus.

7. Pack

8. Pack

9. Clean

10. Pack!

Mmmm, yeah. It's really happening. It's time for the real world.

I love eating in NYC

March is here?!

Dang, it's already March? Where has the time gone?

Only one take home exam stands between me and spring break. Nothing exciting going on for my week off. I just need a break from Rochester. I'm so tired of school and the weather is depressing. Not to mention, I miss Dan. I don't mean to sound like one of those girls, but there are some days when I wish that he was still a 10 minute drive away instead of a 6 hour drive away. This might sound crazy, but I think doing long distance when I was abroad is easier than having to deal with it right now because when I was in Beijing, I knew that he was out of reach and I had to learn to deal with it. But being in Rochester makes it harder because he's only a few hours away but can't visit that often, which makes him just barely out of reach.

Anyway.

I've been bad about updating my blog. I wish I had things to write about. Interesting things to write about. I tried to make this into a baking blog a while back but I totally failed at that. I like doing the baking, but I'm not so good at reporting about it later on. I love reading blogs and I feel inspired to write when I read blogs, but I never actually do it. This whole blogging thing is hard. I definitely admire all the bloggers out there who update everyday (with pictures and everything). I used to be very good about blogging back in high school. Not so much now. I wonder what changed. I haven't been keeping up with my 365 project on Flickr either. I really don't want to give up though, but at the same time, I've been neglecting it so much that I feel like maybe it's better just to stop the project.

I don't know..

Drowning in new technology

This generation is indeed one chock full of new technology. With all the new things that have come out in the past few years, there are no signs of it slowing down at all. Two weeks ago, the iPad came out and now Google has just released Google Buzz - twitter on speed. I've been playing with it all afternoon and I gotta admit, it's pretty cool. There's no point in ever leaving your gmail page because Google has it all: email, search engine, calendar, reader, youtube, documents, blogs, texting, google voice and now twitter on speed (aka Buzz).

It's exciting to be a part of all this technological generation; to be able to understand it and use it with ease.